Exactly how I feel #23

" Note to self - I miss you terribly,This is what we call a tragedy."

" Love, I get so lost, sometimes. Days pass and this emptiness fills my heart. When I want to run away, I drive off in my car, But whichever way I go, I come back to the place you are. "

Right at this moment, that is how I feel. I really do feel that I run around in circles sometimes. Love is just so complicated. It never really ever makes sence. It only leaves you with questions and complicating situations. I just feel like I want to know the answers to my questions.I would like to enjoy some sence of a piece of mind.

My ex and I have been on this ongoing battle for five and a half years. We even were engaged for a while. We get together we break up, we get back together, then we break up again. Every time it happens we just can't not talk to eachother. It's like our brains don't understand that we can not talk or hang out with out us wanting to be together. It just never works. It is a constant cycle that just wont end. I really thought it was over this time. I really didn't think we were ever going to be able to talk or hang out. Yet we do and the cylce continues and there is nothing that I can do,because I dont know what to do.

So the cycle continues, and the five and half years will turn into six and who knows from there. What a story it will be.