Guns #33

On Saturday I am going to take a class so that I can get my F.I.D card, and be able to apply to get my license to carry, I am so exicted. I know the class will probably be really boring since it is an eight hour class but when I'm done its gunna be awesome. I will be able to buy a gun and learn how to shoot better. It'll also be a good way for me and my dad to spend some time together. He is a cop so I don't really relate to him in any ways, his work in a way has consumed most of his life. If i have a gun he can teach me how to shoot and we will have a hobby in common. I think it will be a really good thing. I am totally excited!

Watch out Boston here I come #32

I am on my way to Boston this weekend, it will hopefully be a great time. Me ad a few of my friends are going to go dancing near Fenway. Its going be to be sooo much fun, I can't wait. It'll be nice to go up there and be stress free and just hang out and dance which is one of my favorite things to do.

On the other hand it could always end up in a big drama fest, because whenever I go up there on of my friends has always got drama surround her. I am really hoping that it is a laid back night and I dont have to put up with any lameness(my new word).

So lets hope that everything goes smoothly and its a great time.

Soldier #31

My best friend has been in love with a boy for years. They have gone back and forth since they were in seventh grade. Most people beleive that you dont know what love is when you are that young, but these two love the hell out of eachother and have forever. Six months ago he was sent over to Iraq. The enitre time that he has been there they have been emailing eachother since being on the phone isn't an easy option. They kind of started this strange relationship backwards since they couldn't be around eachother. Well he is finally home from Iraq and it is amazing. I normally hate the guys my friends pick out because they date these guys that are such jerks. But this boy he is totally different, and I like it. My friend has been through so much in the past few years and to finally see her, in love and truly happy is wonderful. Out of all the people I know she deserves it the most, and I can't wait to see how things work out for them in the next few weeks.



Now that I am done gushing about how great my friend and her lover are I am going to go get ready for work...

A change #30

Life is yet again changing... and I am okay with it. I feel like I am back to the old Morgan, the one who is a free spirit and just wants to have fun. I have decided to forget about some of the old drama I have had going on in my life, it's the right to time to just let go. I am over being in love,I am over drama, and things that just arent important. I am going to focus on me and what I want for a while, and I think it is totally okay. I think that every once in a while people needto take time out for themselves. The more time I have taken to just be me and do what I want, I have found the happier I am. I am content being on my own, and I am content with my life. Its a great feeling especially since the holidays are here.

Bring on the new year because I am ready for it!

My friends #29

I have some of the greatest friends in the entire world, but sometimes they are the greatest pain in my butt. I swear that sometimes people just don't think before they say or do things, or maybe they just are numb sometimes.

My friends have been so ridiculous lately. I really truly think that they just have no comprehension of what the world is really like and the sacrifices that come along with decisions you make. I understand that if I choose to do something it may be that along the way I can't do something because of what I have already chosen to do. For instance, if you owe rent in a week and you don't have any money you probably shouldn't go out and buy things that aren't necesities. You also shouldn't decline extra shifts at your job if you have no money.

I also have annoyed because we all threw a massive party for two of our friends birthday. The party was supposed to be a great time we had spent a lot of time and money putting everything together and what happens...the party sucks, not even sucked it royally sucked. Girls are just such drama queens sometimes I just would like to completely avoid drama. I know that sometimes it is un avoidable but AHHHH I just hate it, no matter what kind of drama it is.

I am done ranting and raving now I feel much better now that I have vented out all of my anger and tension. On that note I am going to go and try to do some homework so I can pass my class!

..... #28

It's been a while since I have written anything. The past few weeks seem like they have just disappeared. Time always goes by so quickly this time of year. Thanksgiving was alright, I mess just like every holiday with the family, a good mess though. I am getting ready to finish up my christmas shopping which I am excited about. I love sitting and wrapping all of my presents it's so much fun. Christmas is by far my favorite holiday besides my birthday. I consider my birthday a holiday because its my holiday. I have a christmas party for my job this weekend, it should be a great time with lots of great food.

I could write an entire book about my feelings about my friends right now but I will save that for another journal entry...

I am totally scattered in my writing today, I guess it is just one of those off days, Oh well...

Today is changing, and so is tomorrow...#27

The life I live is so confusing sometimes. Sometimes you feel totally okay with the way your life is, and then sometime you feel like you got robbed almost. Thats how I feel right now. I am very grateful for the life I have and I love my life. On the other hand my life could have been a lot different, I could have been planning a wedding right now. I feel as if everything that has happened in the past two years has just been crazy, almost a blur of turmoil and happiness and crazy moments that are burned into my memory forever. When so much happens in such a short amount of time when it is all finally over with, when the time comes for you to sit and think about what the hell just happened to you, it's not always easy. I just keep realizing new things everyday and I love it, but it also makes me feel like I have no security because things are changing so fast.

This life I live is great, and the next few months are going to be some of the best of my life, and it should be really interesting to see where I end up.